Disassociation

i feel like i’m going crazy

like my brain is a compilation of strings

intricately laced together

slowly unraveling

one by one

thought by thought

it’s beyond forgetfulness of words and tasks

its forgetfulness of where i am

who i am

if im even alive

i can’t feel my body.

i squeeze dig rip into my body and i feel nothing

it’s like im not here

not real

not alive

where am i

who am i

my mind is screaming

help

im lost

and i can’t feel

im scared.

please notice

but my outsides remain plastic

i wont show them im crazy

i wont show them im weak

invalidation i do to myself

grounding i can’t grasp

how am i supposed to ground myself when i can’t feel anything

but i am here

it’s just my mind

i am sane

it’s just my mind

it’s all temporary

and it’ll be okay.

you’re real, you’re human

you feel.

it’s just your mind.